I guess it shouldn't really matter anymore. I guess I really shouldn't care- then why do I still?I am so caught up and confused, twisted used up and dazed in love and loss. Why does this happen why did I have to expect what I did? If I got a new boyfriend, how is he not entitled to his own..... but he's not. and I hate that, I hate him for hating me and for making me feel the way I do and the ways I did before. I miss some memories yes, but honestly the good ones= who wouldn't? I can't blame myself for feeling this way or thinking about it so much. I love Sean I absolutely do- then why do I catch myself thinking of OLD memories... I wish them to go away but I still feel I can't escape what I've done, gone thru and who I've been with.i just miss memories.. i hate her for being with him- well oh well, let him go fuck his little china doll and I'll be happy here with the one I love most, who treats me best and consoles me like no one else, makes me feel safe, loved and secure. I love him with all my heart.... i will never doubt that!